When things go to Sh*t. . . I live for music

When the world seems like it’s pushing, I tend to escape into my imagination. This year, spotify has been my best friend. Allowing me to listen to whatever I feel like, and in which ever mood I may find myself in. Music really is a healing thing. I have always been drawn to music to help escape reality.

In regards to my fanfiction addiction, when I listen to music, I tend to connect a song with an anime or a situation and create a story that goes along with it.
Like for example, I love Yuri On Ice! and the first time I heard James Arthur’s Say You Won’t Let go, I just imagine an Omegaverse AU, where Viktor sings this to Yuuri or this is his exhibition tribute to Yuuri and his love. I heard the lyrics, and just thought of Episode 10’s banquet scene. I just think this song would be something Viktor would just do. But in some over the top, extra way.

I can just imagine how this would play out out. I have the setting and the dialogue.  Unfortunately, I just can’t seem to put it in writing. I have always been able to vividly imagine things, like a movie playing out in my mind’s eye. But I have the worst time writing them so eloquently and creating the imagery for other’s to not only understand, but to also get lost in. Well that and my grammar is positively horrid 😀

I would love to write my fanfiction fantasies. So if anyone has any advice on how to go about writing my visual stories, I would greatly appreciate it! I just can’t seem to express it on paper. Which is so frustrating!

Now do me a favor. Look at these photos and listen to the song at the bottom and leave me a comment on how you think Viktor would present this song to his katsudon 😀



Creative Reminder: A little 90’s Grunge Testing

For a Photo Stylist, testing is an amazing thing. It allows you to branch out of your little box and be creative and to just have pure fun while you work. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my job! But having to constantly obey the rules of your client 5 days a week, 365 days of the year can be a little stifling to your creative self.

My last post was about how I lost that passion, and here is a post to help remind me of it. Last year, myself, my awesome photog, my hilarious digi-tech, my spunky HMU, and a beautiful model all came together for a fun shoot in Philly’s FDR Park 😄
Here is the result of that test, to remind me the fun and passion and creativity that lies within my job ♥️

I hope you enjoyed this glance into my mind. Stay tuned for more creative things to come. 

Oh and if anyone wants to collaborate on a test shoot, fashion or cosplay or anything just send me a message! I would love to work with you! 😁


Creativity: Something I Lost This Past Year. . .

cre·a·tiv·i·ty noun
noun: creativity
  1. the use of the imagination or original ideas, especially in the production of an artistic work.
    Synonyms:inventivenessimaginationinnovation, innovativeness, originalityindividualityartistryinspirationvisionenterpriseinitiativeresourcefulness
    – Google Dictionary

    You are probably thinking to yourself: why the hell did she give the definition of creativity? Well it’s to remind myself exactly what it is.

I love being creative, which is why sewing and cosplay are some of my favorite past times and outlets. It allows me to forget the stress of being an adult and to focus on creating something beautiful, complex, and amazing. Something I can look at and go, yeah, I made that. So with that being said, this past year I have lost my creativity. It’s like I lost my soul. I have no inspiration or motivation. I just can’t think up ideas, or come up with cosplays. I mean what the heck!!!!! I am like a black hole of nothingness and it is really frustrating. I feel to stagnant in life.

So last weekend, I went and had a Tarot reading done with an amazing lady. The deck I choose to work with was Doreen Virtue’s Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards. Now, not saying you have to believe in this. But I very much do. I actually own the deck myself. I have been feeling lethargic and stuck the last month. I am so relieved to have gone and had this done because, this reading gave me insight on what I need to look at to move forward too. Things I need to do for myself to be more successful in my life. The biggest thing I left with after my reading is: I need to be creative again. I need to unleash my imagination by writing, dancing, or sewing. I just need to create and meet people who have the same interests as myself! So we can motivate each other in being creative.

So, this post is to warn you. I am going to be posting really random ideas now. Maybe Short Prompts for myself, a horribly written fanfiction here or there, or even some v-log posts. All I ask to anyone who actually follows me or reads these. Be gentle. I am not trying to make money or anything. I just want to get my creativity moving once again 😀

So thank you all and I apologize for the coming posts. They will be hellish 😀

Something for me to remember:





Bodyboss Workout… Is it worth it?

So, I know I said in my previous post that I have Hypothyroidism. Now that my energy and hormones seem to be working as one again, my biggest problem is getting a work out. Like many hypothyroid sufferers, I am having problems losing the weight I gained.  I am sadly out of shape for being only 28 years old. I have to catch my breath when I walk up stairs (sad? I know right?).

I did hold a gym membership and I think I went twice. By the time I get home from work,  make dinner and eat, I have no energy to go to the gym and workout. So I cancelled that and now we have a home gym in our new basement and I have only used it twice. I just have no motivation and I really need a swift kick in the ass to get my physical body back.

I know I am rambling, so back to the point of this post. I keep seeing advertisements for Bodyboss. It is a 12 week program to get you into shape. The trainings are 24 minutes long and you do them 3 times a week and their are 4 unique exercise combinations: Bodyweight Resistance Exercises, Plyometric Exercises (Jumps), Cardio, and Unilateral Exercises.  Here is a link to their Website: Bodyboss

So I am wondering if anyone out there is in the midst of the workout or anyone has completed it, is this worth buying and trying? In the past, I have tried workouts and regimes but nothing really stuck and I am wondering if this is a good thing to use for not only quicker results but something I can use long-term.

Please, Please, Please, anyone who can help is welcome to leave me a comment or a message. Now, that I am feeling better, I need to get my body there as well 😀

Thank you so much in advance!


It’s Been Far too Long. . .

So, I believe my last post was last October. . . Wow, how time flies.
This year has been a bit crazy. My health hasn’t been the best. After feeling out of it for a about 5 years now, my doctors have discovered the root cause . . . drum roll. . . I have Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, an auto-immune disease. Or simply put I have hypothyroidism and apparently, the mono I caught my freshmen year of college is likely the culprit that triggered the problem. (ew college dorm germs). Any who, it has been a little bit over a year now, and with some adjustments to my medicine and some small diet changes (rip my sugar highs) I am feeling better than ever! So yay to that! I am feeling more like my crazy hyper self than ever. It’s amazing, when people tell you they wish they had your energy, especially after feeling so lethargic for a long time.

I am also sad to admit that I had no cosplay plans this year or any conventions to go to. My fiance and I bought a house a little over a year and a half ago. Which is amazing!
But my horrendous student loan debt came out of deferment and between them and my bills, there is no money for vacas or cons 😦 I swear, I lose sleep over my student debt. I have an MBA and nothing really to show for it, except being poor.

Ah, one awesome thing I am in love with this year, Yuri On Ice! #Vikturri4ever. I absolutely love that show and the fandom and I think I have over 300 bookmarked YOI fanfictions on my AOO account. #noshame

Well, I have no excuses for not keeping up with my blog. But now that I have the energy and the enthusiasm, I am excited to be back on.

So I hope you look forward to my random ramblings 😀




10 places in Japan so beautiful it’s practically hard to take a bad picture while you’re there — RocketNews24

Nine locations to visit right now, and one to save for the spring. Whether you’re capturing the images that perfectly represent your personal relationship with the country or just taking some cool snaps to share on Instagram, Japan offers some amazing photography venues. With the weather entering the magical not-too-hot, not-too-cold sweet spot, there’s no…

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Jaw-dropping Hunter x Hunter anime cosplay is the tallest costume we’ve seen all summer【Photos】 — RocketNews24

The clothing was the easy part of this amazing anime costume. Putting together the perfect anime cosplay outfit requires a pretty big time commitment, seeing as how you can’t just walk into a clothing store at the mall and buy the components of the medium’s most iconic characters. But in some cases, wearing the costume…

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My Cosplays from Otakon :D

Whelp, Otakon 2016 is now officially over! But here are some pictures of my cosplays from the weekend. Unfortunately, it was so hot we didn’t stay in costume very long and with the construction in Inner Harbor we didn’t get great pics 😦 But hopefully when it cools down maybe we can go off for a photo shoot 😀

My Greek goddess Nyx Outfit and my sister and I did humanoid vintage Hamtaro and Bijou 😀

Let me know what you think 😀

What has been your most recent cosplays?


The Business of Geek Fashion Panel at Comic-Con — Crazy 4 Comic Con

Do you ever wonder how the latest Star Wars fashion collection was made or why companies are hosting fashion shows featuring your favorite fandoms? This panel will offer an inside look at the business of geek fashion, examining the major changes that took place in the industry over the last year and what they means […]

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